It's just the way the cookie crumbles.

I have a massive headache and I'm supposed to be resting right now, but I'm blogging away so that I can calm down a bit, Hopefully this helps, oh & Hello Genelle (: (Happy now? haha.)

Okay first and fore mostly, this goes out to all the low life's out there...If you guys have nothing else better to do with your boring lives, stay the hell out of mine! and don't even dare, wait let me emphasize that (inscase you guys are too dumb to understand that or see that!) , DON'T EVEN DARE try to ruin mines! got it, good? thankyouverymuch. --wait actually this goes out to everyone that has nothing else better to do but make me a part of the subject of their ignorant gossips.

MOVING ALONG...

I wish I had more days like the one I described in my last entry. Lately, life's been an extremely emotional rollercoaster, which is causing me to want to emotionally shut down, but I've realized numerous things about myself and it sucks how it took me this long to discover my roots.

Yesterday someone told me, "Arlaine, You need to stop beating yourself up all the time, and just laugh it off, and not care too much." -and this person is very right, and that's very true. I care too much about what people think about me, I care about people too much in general, I always beat myself up and blame myself when things go wrong when half of the time, I didnt even do anything wrong and none of it is really even my fault.

...And realizing that is a real eye opener to me, I need to like wake up! NOW, before sweet life passes me by. So starting today, It's all going to change,I'm going to change that. It's either I care too much or I don't care at all, and you know what, now that I think about it, I rather not beat myself up and be a worried wart 24/7 and I rather just not care at all. Seriously, I just don't give a crap anymore about what people think or say, I dont have to prove anything to anyone, I really don't have to prove myself. I've been doing that for too long now and trying to please everybody and somewhere, somehow, someone just has to draw the line.

Believe whatever you want to believe 'cause what you see is what you get and nothing more than that. Everyone has their own perspective of an individual and whatever they think or say about you, you'll just have to respect that, am I right? whether it's good or bad, that's just the way the game works. yes? so just DEAL WITH IT.

I'm not saying I'm not going to care about anyone anymore, of course I still will, just not the the extent where I beat myself up so much all the time, yanno what I mean? enough is enough, only I know who I really am,(besides God of course) So all of you low lifes out there can just shut your freaken mouths up! mhm so yeah, with all that being said no one has the right to judge one another, and I mean NO ONE in that matter, (and YES this includes me haha!) 'cause really when it all comes down, you don't even really know the person inside or even out so just keep your mouths shut if you have nothing else better or nice to say.

...and today, I also promised myself that I would stop mentioning whatsherface, _______. Seriously, I'll stop. That is soo last year, haha I need to get over that already. I feel immature and childish for even talking about her. I'm done with that. I need to like grow-up and like move on, we all have a little growing up and maturing to do am I right? hahaha. Just agree with me (:

...okay So I know I'm downgrading so many what ever you want to call it "nice guys"?, but I guess heaven only knows what's really on their minds, AIN'T FAIR at all, and plus haven't I mentioned that I'm not interested or looking for anyone, like seriously. I'm NOT, 'cause I don't need to. I'm not bragging or anything but some guys just need to getoffmynuts. They're so annoying that I felt the need to blog about it, and I feel like changing my number as well.

Oh and btw, this goes out to everyone... Please don't give my number away without my permission! SERIOUSLY!!! I have enough random guys and stupid, dumb, lame prank callers calling me at midnight and what not...hah, Thanks this would be greatly appreciated.

And I don't want to say anything about my love life because as of right now, I don't have one that's worth listening to.I'll let you guys know when everything gets better...If it ever does.

Well have a good weekend everyone, I have no plan for my weekend yet, so Im just working with spontaneity and luck right now :/ lalalaLAME! I know. haha.

-Arlaine

"...And that's just the way the cookie crumbles"