Okay, so I told myself that I wasn't going to blog anymore of my feelings in this thing anymore, but hah, guess what? things change haha, I mean that's the whole reason or should I say point why I'm even blogging in the first place, Am I right? besides to update you guys on whats veen going on with me & to keep everyone updated. Well with that being said I'll keep most of my inner thoughts to a minimum, I won't totally blab about how I'm really feeling, 'cause yeah I don't want to get introuble again, & NO ER, not by my parent's haha!
So moving along, this is my last week of vacation (sadly) wow, two months went by hecka fast. But it was REALLY FUN while it lasted. Eh, back to reality haha so long 'good life' haha. These next two months (Nov. & Dec.) in school will be CRUCIAL for me, but I'm ready. But alas, all my priorites are back in order. Like I said before, my drive has had the velocity of a snail. I know I clearly haven't been at my best, and I know saying it over and over again won't do anything, so It's either I make some changes or I stay in this rut I've been in for about 3 months now...
I was cleaning out my room today, and I stumbled upon so many things that really motivated me. I found a lot of my old notebooks, old drawings, etc... I'm so insanely motivated to make something of myself. Like I said a few days ago, you really do always find your way back to your roots. I really haven't changed. My passion has caught up with me; it's not allowing my apathy to get the best of me any longer. Finally!
Praise you Jesus, for motivating me yet again. I can't keep taking breaks the way I do because I tend to let go of the things I'm so passionate about. I have a drive like no other; it's about time I learned to use it fully. I waste too much time thinking about what I could do, what I should've done, where I could've been at, and what I need to get done in terms of my career as opposed to straight out doing it. There's so such thing as trying, in my eyes -- only doing. You're either doing, or you aren't. Trying is a sorry for excuse for those who feel their goals are unattainable. I know I got this on lock because I've got an amazing group of loved ones on my side. Like I always say: Effort -- make none, get none. Sometimes you've got to make all the effort. It's really the only way. I'm more than okay with that because this is all worth it. I've got my head on straight, all I need is to make some changes and start really making moves. I really just need to focus better.
This is the best I've felt in a long time, I feel good. I'm okay. I'm praying that 'everything will be okay' . I REALLY miss everyone at my old church but, I know I'll still be seeing them around, this is all just temporary. Like Ate Kk told me: "It doesnt matter what church you go to, what matters is that you worship GOD and serve him with all your heart."- & when she told me that, It really hit me. She's right & that's so true, we don't go to church for the people, we go to church to worship and serve God. It made me feel better when she told me that...I miss a lot of you :(
So moving along, this is my last week of vacation (sadly) wow, two months went by hecka fast. But it was REALLY FUN while it lasted. Eh, back to reality haha so long 'good life' haha. These next two months (Nov. & Dec.) in school will be CRUCIAL for me, but I'm ready. But alas, all my priorites are back in order. Like I said before, my drive has had the velocity of a snail. I know I clearly haven't been at my best, and I know saying it over and over again won't do anything, so It's either I make some changes or I stay in this rut I've been in for about 3 months now...
I was cleaning out my room today, and I stumbled upon so many things that really motivated me. I found a lot of my old notebooks, old drawings, etc... I'm so insanely motivated to make something of myself. Like I said a few days ago, you really do always find your way back to your roots. I really haven't changed. My passion has caught up with me; it's not allowing my apathy to get the best of me any longer. Finally!
Praise you Jesus, for motivating me yet again. I can't keep taking breaks the way I do because I tend to let go of the things I'm so passionate about. I have a drive like no other; it's about time I learned to use it fully. I waste too much time thinking about what I could do, what I should've done, where I could've been at, and what I need to get done in terms of my career as opposed to straight out doing it. There's so such thing as trying, in my eyes -- only doing. You're either doing, or you aren't. Trying is a sorry for excuse for those who feel their goals are unattainable. I know I got this on lock because I've got an amazing group of loved ones on my side. Like I always say: Effort -- make none, get none. Sometimes you've got to make all the effort. It's really the only way. I'm more than okay with that because this is all worth it. I've got my head on straight, all I need is to make some changes and start really making moves. I really just need to focus better.
This is the best I've felt in a long time, I feel good. I'm okay. I'm praying that 'everything will be okay' . I REALLY miss everyone at my old church but, I know I'll still be seeing them around, this is all just temporary. Like Ate Kk told me: "It doesnt matter what church you go to, what matters is that you worship GOD and serve him with all your heart."- & when she told me that, It really hit me. She's right & that's so true, we don't go to church for the people, we go to church to worship and serve God. It made me feel better when she told me that...I miss a lot of you :(
I'm in love.
Love,
-Arlaine
-Arlaine
"Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are..."
1 comment:
i could have sworn you said half of this blog already ahah wow KK actually said that?!?! haha interesting!well good job!
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