"So now it's my turn. Now, it's time for me to take care of me"
It's my turn ..right? MY TURN. Mine. I like how this situation is entirely inevitable. The moment I feel like I'm doing something for me, the moment I'm as focused as I can be, my biggest motivating force always seem to work against me. How this happens is far beyond my understanding. I coulda sworn this time it was my turn. I promise I'm trying.
On the other hand I'm nowhere near where I want to be, but I'm finally no longer stuck. Progress is being made, and I am learning...I'm definitely learning.
....These past couple of weeks have seriously been rough on me, but (thanks to a good friend of mine) I've realized that I can't take it back. I can't take any of it back. But, I can make sure I don't lose focus for the same reasons. I'm only human. I won't pretend it won't happen again. But I'm trying. I swear I'm trying. Change is far too necessary. It's time for me to really check myself and make some adjustments. You'd think I'd be used to it by now, but who's ever really ready? I'm as ready as it gets. So, here's to another sick attempt to stay focused. Too many mistakes have held me too far back. Too many worries have caused me to waste too much of time. This cycle is .. too much, and the weight is getting too heavy. Despite my many set backs, I trust everything will work out-- whether it's smooth sailing or not.
On the other hand I'm nowhere near where I want to be, but I'm finally no longer stuck. Progress is being made, and I am learning...I'm definitely learning.
....These past couple of weeks have seriously been rough on me, but (thanks to a good friend of mine) I've realized that I can't take it back. I can't take any of it back. But, I can make sure I don't lose focus for the same reasons. I'm only human. I won't pretend it won't happen again. But I'm trying. I swear I'm trying. Change is far too necessary. It's time for me to really check myself and make some adjustments. You'd think I'd be used to it by now, but who's ever really ready? I'm as ready as it gets. So, here's to another sick attempt to stay focused. Too many mistakes have held me too far back. Too many worries have caused me to waste too much of time. This cycle is .. too much, and the weight is getting too heavy. Despite my many set backs, I trust everything will work out-- whether it's smooth sailing or not.
On the bright side, --I'm waiting for the bright side.
--More of what I need, LESS of what I don't.
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