STRUGGLE.

So my cousin gave me this sermon about satisfaction in life and her jibber jabber, and where I guess to find it? IDK, but it didn't interest me at all to be honest, until she mentioned "People have everything they ever wished for, and it's still not enough.". It sorta made me sad and it sorta hit me. It's so hard to satisfy a person, coming from me, trust me, I should know. It's like seriously giving EVERYTHING FOR NOTHING.

Life's so hard when it's not going your way, seriously.

So lately I've felt that no matter how much or how hard I try to make something work, the more i seem to be doing something wrong, well at least according to one specific person. I feel like i shouldn't even exist to this person anymore just cause all I end up doing is pissing that person off. it's not a fun job. seriously, I think this is the end of feeling this way enough is enough,'cause I'm DONE with not being ENOUGH.

I feel like whenever I try to give my best I always get the worst and whenever I feel like there's some hope and just when I feel like everything's going to be okay and get better, it all crashes down, and I'm so confused. I'm lost. I don't know anymore.

"Whatever my heart wants always conflicts with what my head tells me to do,
and I never know which one to follow." -That is EXACTLY HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW :'(

I just really miss....