Getting, Going Somewhere...

Lately, my drive has had the velocity of a snail. I clearly haven't been at my best, and I know saying it over and over again won't do anything. I've really got to find the motivation I once had. Apathy has its advantages, but it has more cons than anything. Plus there's really only so much Nasty that can do for me, you know? I know. I got this, I know I do. I just hope I can get stay on track for more than a couple days -- and stay on it for quite a while. This is nothing I can't handle. I just need an attitude adjustment. I also need to get rid of the many distractions I have in my life right now. You know, the ones that really only bring me down for even just a little while...Better decisions include a lot more thought and a lot more logic. Am I right?

I know I can't keep taking breaks the way I do because I tend to let go of the things I'm so passionate about. I have a drive like no other; it's about time I learned to use it fully. I waste too much time thinking about what I could do, what I should've done, where I could've been at, and what I need to get done in terms of my career as opposed to straight out doing it. There's no such thing as trying, in my eyes -- only doing. You're either doing, or you aren't. Trying is a sorry for excuse for those who feel their goals are unattainable. I know I got this on lock because I've got an amazing group of loved ones on my side. Like I always say: Effort -- make none, get none. Sometimes you've got to make all the effort. It's really the only way. I'm more than okay with that because this is all worth it. I've got my head on straight, all I need is to make some changes and start really making moves. I really just need to focus better. Help me, Jesus.

Oh, and don't you dare stand in my way.

Now a side of old roots. I'm back to the way I used to be. Now, that could definitely be both a good thing and a bad thing. Good because I've once again been enlightened to the extent of a brand new, old perspective. If you were me, that would totally make sense. I'm not even kidding. Now, bad because I'm starting to do a few of the things I used to -- & that's definitely not helping out any situation. Especially because my apathy has once again gotten the best of me. I'm really just living now, and like I said: it could definitely be both a good and bad thing. I'm stuck in the middle of figuring out which side weighs more. I really haven't changed. I doubt I ever will.

There's so much life going on, but that's not new at all. I've been enlightened, really. Praise you, Jesus, for fixing my fogged up perspective. Things are clearer again. It must be all the love?

-AMA