Growing Thin.

To be completely honest, many of my friendships are being tested right now. I definitely enjoy good company, but please don't ever think I need you in my life. It's gotten to the point where, FOR THE FIRST TIME, I'm keeping track of faults. Yeah yeah, love keeps no records of wrongs I know. I love because I love to love. I forgive because I can. I tolerate because I can. I do what I do because I can-- but I refuse to be taken advantage of. My trust is growing thin because I know I don't need the BS I'm currently receiving. The past couple days have made me realize quite a bit. I'm definitely taking on far more responsibility than I have to because I know I can handle it. But in order to handle it well, I'd have to make some changes. I'm not having a hard time putting my priorities in order, so that's not it at all. All I know is that it's time for a change, and I'm more than willing to make those changes-- so do not stand in my way.

My list of true friends have gotten much much smaller. I've said this before, I know. You truly do win some and lose some. All I know is I've got a good bunch right now. There's a reason the ones who were lost couldn't stick around, I'm sure; but it was good while it lasted.I've definitely lost many, but my loss is nothing compared to what I've gained. It's funny how I didn't realize that even if you lose some, there's always that slight chance you might gain them back. Oh, how I've really gained some back.

I've taken "overwhelmed" to a whole new level, but it's nothing I can't handle. But please, stop the games-- I'm far too tired to really do much. As for the rest, it is what it is. I'm definitely learning.

I'm focused, I'm motivated, and I'm ready.