For the past week, I’ve been semi-sick with a mild sore throat and an endless runny nose (again). A few days ago, I was unfortunate enough to catch the flu and it felt just awful. I couldn’t sleep the night before because my body ached and every time I breathed in, the back of my throat felt as if it were being stabbed by a knife. I can honestly tell you that I almost used up an entire roll of toilet paper just from my runny nose (and it’s still going as we speak). I wish I could use the tissue as a nostril cork without feeling like a complete doofus. Whatever works, right?
I also forgot to mention that I had a dream of baking last night. Weird, I know. Who dreams about baking stuff? There’s a perfectly good reason for this, trust me. For the past few days now I’ve been grossly obsessed with a blog called Bakerella.com; she inspires me to, well, bake. If you’re not a big fan of reading through blogs (or reading at all) you can just look at her work on Flickr. I swear I get fatter and fatter every day just from looking at what she makes. You can read about her combination for love of cupcakes and photography here. I know you guys will enjoy looking at her work :]
Okay, so moving along...so Sunday February Um, 23 (which was yesterday lol) I visited my mother church "LOH" and It felt so good, It made me happy. heh, It also made me tear up a bit. I really missed everyone SO much. I felt like I was "home" where I belong or I mean/ supposed to be at. I didnt feel out of place or anything, it was normal, just like how everything USE TO BE. It made me so happy to see everyone and get all the warm hugs and kisses! xo...It made me HAPPY. PERIOD.
...Oh and what made me even happier were all the "weight loss" comments I got from like 7 people, hah no kidd, t'was crazy. The funniest one was "You lost so much weight, you know why? 'cause you have a lot of problems huh?" HAHA, thanks...YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE [;
oh and..."Omg laine, you look so skinny, are you still depressed or stressed out?" -haha ouch, do I really look that sad? and NO I did not lose weight on purpose, I just I don't know, um have no time to eat? mhm, yup. But overall, I was happy to be with "family" (: hmm, and maybe I'll be back for good...just maybe.
...Oh and I found something out when I went to church, that um my "Momma" told me...and I don't know WHY I feel this way...but I feel sad in way, seriously I AM SAD. like IDK. It's SO SO SO WEIRD, 'cause I don't know why I feel this way or why I'm starting to feel like this all of a sudden. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? Ew [.......]
You know what I hate the most about myself? Is that I care TOO MUCH about everything and I worry too much about everything...seriously! and I need to stop! It's such a WASTE OF TIME. ...and I worry about non-sense on like the most irrelevant things to worry about. UGH. I annoy myself sometimes, like right now. I need to b-r-e-a-t-h-e.
I also forgot to mention that I had a dream of baking last night. Weird, I know. Who dreams about baking stuff? There’s a perfectly good reason for this, trust me. For the past few days now I’ve been grossly obsessed with a blog called Bakerella.com; she inspires me to, well, bake. If you’re not a big fan of reading through blogs (or reading at all) you can just look at her work on Flickr. I swear I get fatter and fatter every day just from looking at what she makes. You can read about her combination for love of cupcakes and photography here. I know you guys will enjoy looking at her work :]
Okay, so moving along...so Sunday February Um, 23 (which was yesterday lol) I visited my mother church "LOH" and It felt so good, It made me happy. heh, It also made me tear up a bit. I really missed everyone SO much. I felt like I was "home" where I belong or I mean/ supposed to be at. I didnt feel out of place or anything, it was normal, just like how everything USE TO BE. It made me so happy to see everyone and get all the warm hugs and kisses! xo...It made me HAPPY. PERIOD.
...Oh and what made me even happier were all the "weight loss" comments I got from like 7 people, hah no kidd, t'was crazy. The funniest one was "You lost so much weight, you know why? 'cause you have a lot of problems huh?" HAHA, thanks...YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE [;
oh and..."Omg laine, you look so skinny, are you still depressed or stressed out?" -haha ouch, do I really look that sad? and NO I did not lose weight on purpose, I just I don't know, um have no time to eat? mhm, yup. But overall, I was happy to be with "family" (: hmm, and maybe I'll be back for good...just maybe.
...Oh and I found something out when I went to church, that um my "Momma" told me...and I don't know WHY I feel this way...but I feel sad in way, seriously I AM SAD. like IDK. It's SO SO SO WEIRD, 'cause I don't know why I feel this way or why I'm starting to feel like this all of a sudden. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? Ew [.......]
You know what I hate the most about myself? Is that I care TOO MUCH about everything and I worry too much about everything...seriously! and I need to stop! It's such a WASTE OF TIME. ...and I worry about non-sense on like the most irrelevant things to worry about. UGH. I annoy myself sometimes, like right now. I need to b-r-e-a-t-h-e.
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