Sober.

It's true when they say "You can erase someone from your mind but getting them out of your heart is a different story..."

My mom was right, my friends were right, I WAS WRONG...VERY WRONG..and It takes a lot for me to admitt that. Who am I fooling? NO ONE, just myself...No matter how late I stay out, no matter how many drinks or stogs I have, or no matter how many guys I talk to, at the end of the day...he's still on my mind, and definitely still in my heart. I can get him off my mind for a good few hours and then at the end, It's still him I'm wanting and missing. I THOUGHT I was ready, to let go, to move on to start dating again...Boy, was I WRONG. This is going to take me much longer than I expected, and I hate it.

"Sleeping with uncertainties, hoping to wake up with assurance and re-commitment. "

God, please help me.