I'm in the car with the laptop, waiting for something to do on this lonely valentine's day :/ and I have no idea what to do, I mean I know what I want to do, but then again, I'm not sure If I should go and do it? Does that make any sense? I mean I had, well I did have something special and cute planned for tonight. I just, I don't know...changed my mind? Idk, I don't feel like doing it anymore -___- change of mind, change of plans...and possibly change of heart I mean. I guess, I don't know. I'm feeling really lonely right now and I hate this feeling I hate the feeling that I'm feeling right now, Bree and them were right when they said, "You'll feel good for a few hours but after you sober up, you'll be in the same rut you were in to begin with..." I mean I felt fine, I felt great a while ago, actually but now, I have no idea. I feel detached and out of place with no direction to go, and It really sucks. I hate this feeling. and I hate it when I feel this way. I hate the feeling when you need someone with you by your side. I HATE IT. You know the feeling where you know you should do something right to fix things, but then again your pride or whatever gets the best of you? well I mean..you LET IT get the best of you, Yeah it ruins everything, it ruined everything for me at least. I like seriously need to move the heck on and get over it. -Just like ER use to tell me. " "Grow up, move on & just get over it!" Pardon me, I don't even know what Im saying, seriously. I'm soo out of it today, ask anyone I'm a tad bit hungover...I cant even get my point across...this is sad. Oh gosh. Um, I'm cold, I think I'm going to head to a cafe and read there or something and sip hot cocoa, Yeah sounds good. Well, Okay I'll stop here. Hope everyone else is having a lovely Valentine's Day. -Ciao!
"I best tidy up my head 'cause I'm the only one in love"
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GET OVER IT!
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